Proof of Love

Hey there world,today is one of those days when I have things on my mind that I have to share.And I start with a Question to you all.Have you ever been in love?Not lust,not the kind of just wanting to get laid,have fun,and forget that person kind of love that lasts a night or a few days.But the kind of Love that you would change your life for that person love.The kind of Love that fills a void in your soul.The kind were you would run to them when they called,because they found a spare moment in there day to be with you kind of love.The kind were you wait for hours just to spend a few minutes in the warmth of there eyes,and comforted by there voice.Sheltered from the drama of the day to day reality of the world by them putting there arms around you.The kind of Love that will make you forsake all others and anything just to have that person hold you and tell you that they love you.The kind of Love that will make a man like me,mister ruff around the edges find his inner romantic side.The kind of Love that feels your dreams with the thoughts of your future together and all your hopes of children and a family.Love with unbridled Passion...........Yes,That is what I would call a true Love......................Then in this time of your deepest Love.The person you are in Love with and who is in Love with you starts to find excuses for not calling,not spending time with you,not being there for you as you have for them.And the words I Love You are used as just a way of ending a phone conversation and not with the passion of the way they used to use them toward you.They have just become words again.You are lost,confused,and alone again.And your heart is so heavy.You search for answers to your hearts questions so as to understand what you have done so wrong as to loose this Love that you had.And the last person that a man would ever want to go to ask for help is the person with the most honest answer.Your Mother,the one who you never wanted to talk to about this all till you were bringing this Love of yours to meet her to get her blessing to marry this new Love of yours.And your Mother in her simple way only asks you to ask yourself this one question..........Name one thing that your Love has done to prove her Love to you,just one sacrifice that this person you have done so much for and would do so much more for has ever done in the time you have been together ,for you ,to prove there undieing Love and Devotion to you.Name the sacrifice that they have made for Love.

Used Up

Well it has been a strange run for me here lately,I am so depressed that I don't sleep at night.I find myself walking around the house at 2 in the morning smoking cigarette's and wondering how my life went so wrong.I am what many people would call a successful person in my line of work.I have a small business that does about a million dollars a year gross that I and my partners started with nothing.We have worked when others have gone under in these troubled times.I'm not rich by any means,but I don't have to worry about much.I could have a nice life if I had someone that wanted me for me to have a nice life with.I thought I had found this person,but she is not ready for some reason to take on the commitment of being with someone who cares for her and her child.In my eyes and that of others I am the best thing to have ever happen to this person.But for my Love and troubles I have nothing to show but heartache and this empty void in my soul that she said she was there to fill.I have a list of broken promises and the loneliness of a man that at one time was looking forward to marriage plans and the hopes of a family with this women that all he wanted to do was to make her life so much better than it has ever been.I feel so lost in her confusion of what it is now that she says she wants.I am so in Love and so left behind,wondering threw the darkness with nothing to guide me.I was washed in a flood of her love and kindness only a 6 weeks ago.My life was on the way to the utopia that she painted for my with her words of love and the actions that brought these words to reality.This has all come to what is looking like an end that I never foresaw and never wanted and to this minute still don't want to ever end.I want her Love,her touch,her words,and the sound of her voice.I feel so alone now,more than I ever have in my entire life and I don't know what to do to fix any of it.I'm confused,lost,lonely,hurt,sad,and most of all still in Love...........I'm just USED up..